It was long past expiration date.
Has something like this happened to you?
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Situation: A relationship has reached the point where “what was” can no longer hold, and the sadness of this causes one’s heart to unintentionally and spontaneously melt off an entire layer. It happens uninvited, and we can only endure the process.
For me personally, it was my role as Mother that finally ended. In a way I hadn’t expected. At a time I didn’t see coming. From a most simple statement that set in motion a most profound realization.
At first I was livid, in a way that causes temporary blindness. So I carefully said something, and the response was even worse! Minimal yet shattering to my sensibilities.
Now I’m wise enough to know that there’s no convincing someone who totally believes what they say, so I went speechless before leaving. In the quiet of my room, I slid into an altered state and mentally sorted through the validity of all elements – what was said, what I know, and what is the Truth that lies between.
And I cried. My tender human self who had done her very best all these years needed to process this sadness, even while my soul simultaneously checked in with expanded perspectives of what was actually happening here.
Back and forth I went over the next few hours – between allowing for sadness and contemplating the situation – until a new balance of awareness settled within me. I didn’t like my answers because they were difficult! I slept but my dreams were disturbed. And I could feel these raw edges all of the next day, until I walked and talked them outside, under cover of early darkness and solitary trails.
That’s when I saw my hurting heart, all puffed up and disintegrating, like an over-ripe fruit whose flesh simply falls away from its center. This outer layer melted off to reveal a strong and vibrant core, while my full embodied Presence held awareness of this instantaneous process, so that I could come through into my next knowing. That I am released from this phase of my life.
My responsibilities as Mother have officially ended. All the fierce and loving flesh that built upon my heart when my 4 children deeply needed me? It’s now being composted – recycled into the rich ground of my current Being. The healthy core that remains is the Heart of my Sovereign Self, my essence long hidden under burdens of responsibilities and obligations, which were influenced by survival, fears, and best intentions.
Maybe you’ve not been a mother, but maybe you’ve been altered deeply because a relationship expired or changed in ways that hurt?
You don’t need to go through this alone!
As someone who has experienced all levels of transformation, I am here to hold space and support you through your own challenging, but important journey of empowerment.
I’m not here to tell you What to do or How to do it. I’m here to Listen. And ask Questions that help you Decide for Yourself what’s best for you next. Then next again. And your personal procession of Next Steps, on the way to what you know to be True for Yourself.
You may not even have words for what’s happening. Let’s explore until words and meaning come into focus.
Be witnessed in what you see and feel: what’s true for you in this now.
Allow your emotions to flow without judgment or filters.
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